And so it goes...

It has been a month now. 6 weeks since I gave my notice and went to work for my current company. Since that time I have received 1 cease and desist letter and a shit storm of threats designed to scare me into quitting my job for fear of being sued. I've been advised that their threats are bluffs, but not knowing when or where you might be accosted by a process server, is taxing. I am hoping that the last last certified letter is the last correspondence, but I'm not getting my hopes up. Keep you fingers crossed.
In other news. Well, possibly getting sued pretty much consumes all of my time and energy. If I' not dealing with it, I'm thinking about dealing with it. Sucks.
And. I've been trying to get pregnant. For awhile.
Turns out, what happens accidentally to most women, and with not too much thought or planing for other women, doesn't happen at ALL for me. Not to say that it won't, but damn. Really? It's been close to eight months. I spent a lot of time worrying I was pregnant when I was younger, when really? I shouldn't have bothered.
So. Not to harp on it, but I did go for some testing (everything looks good - 3 small fibroids, but nothing that would prevent a pregnancy) so, now I have another appointment with my ObGyn to discuss this in more detail. I really want to just discuss it because, um, the whole situation freaks me out.
And, well, maybe people that don't just get pregnant aren't supposed to be pregnant, you know? Like, what if I'm fighting destiny or the "way things should be even though I can't know or see the reason"? What if I fuck with the cosmos and disrupt the balance of the universe? I know, I am not that important in the grand scheme of things, but something feels very wrong about messing with "mother nature".
But, I am 33. And they say that if I want to do this, I need to do it now rather than later. I see the point; I understand that I can't just go on waiting for years. I mean, I can but waiting a few years will mean another set of obstacles.
So there's that.
Otherwise, we just got back from a weekend out of state with good friends, good food and all the raucous nonsense and silliness that I used to take for granted before we moved so far aways from everyone. Here on the right coast. It was so fun and so sad to realize that moments like these are so few and far between now. I used to take friends and family for granted. So that's what I'm doing right now.