Here I am, 4(ish) months and no post. Sorry, but life is sometimes so stressful, hectic and complicated that committing it to a post seems overwhelming. Sort of like, if I don't write it here - maybe it isn't really happening or maybe it will be over really, really soon.
So, the update on the job situation is that: yes, I did get it.
And no, my company that will (from here on out) be referred to as "Company A" due to possible pending litigation, was NOT happy about it, in a major way.
In the litigating sort of way. I've had no end of threats and accusations in the week since I've resigned. Is it possible that this has only been going on for a week? It seems like 6 months at least. I can't get into specifics, but apparently Company A thinks that going to work for my current employer is a violation of our non-compete and non-disclosure agreements. They are wrong, but I can't be specific due to afore-mentioned issue.
Anyway, although I know that I am in the right, and although counsel has advised me as such, I cannot relate to you how stressful it is to be sued. The only other time I have had occasion to be involved with lawyers was during my divorce and I wasn't exactly being "sued". What I did learn, however, is that lawyers are freaking expensive, no matter how right you are. At the minimum, they have to illustrate to the "other guy" WHY you are right. That takes time, and they bill hourly, not by the job.
I'm in the wrong business.
While I was an absolute mess for the first 3 days, the last few days I've sort of settled into vacillating between a general malaise and sense of reckless abandon. Either way, it's kind of like: "Screw it!" Which, either way, is a definite improvement to not being able to sleep or eat and suffering horrendous anxiety. At least I can sleep at night. I think this is, in part, due to the fact that at some point on the 3rd or 4th day of this debacle, I realized that I was morally right. Is what is immoral necessarily illegal - of course not. I used to think that the converse was untrue, but I find now, being in this situation, that I was wrong. If I have, in fact, acted illegally, it most certainly WAS moral. So the laws and morality are now totally separate for me, weird. I should say that they do have a relationship; they are intertwined, but they are not as black and white as they once were for me.
Which is to say, I don't know the ramifications of my actions, but I know that I could not have acted any differently. I had a moral obligation to break the parameters of my contract, but the contract may still be legally binding. And I think, for me, I'd rather be on the side of the moral than the legal - if I have to choose.
Which makes you a better person??? I your opinion? In mine? I'm not sure at all.
So now we are in a holding pattern. Which is a particularly appropriate analogy for this situation as I actually once WAS in a literal holding pattern and it was nerve wracking, exactly like this. I was flying into Atlanta and there was a storm on the ground, so the pilot couldn't land the plane, but the turbulence was severe. We stayed up there, 30,000 feet above the airport for 45 minutes - circling, and there were moments when I did not think we were going to "land" so much as crash into the earth in a fiery inferno. This is like that. Until I get some kind of final confirmation that they are either going forward with litigation or not, I'm stuck - hovering. I do believe they are trying to bluff me. Can I call it?
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
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