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Today I have officially crossed the threshold. I hate my job. It wasn't any one major thing - oh no, it never is. Just like there is no sudden, nervous breakdown - it's this daily living that wears u thin. BTW - "Nervous Breakdown" was a medical term that was removed from the lexicon in the 70s. They no longer exist and every time you tell me that your doctor told you that you had a "nervous breakdown" I know you are full of shit.
Anyway - I've been toying with the idea of quitting all day. Just quit. It is sucking the fucking life out of me. F has been home from for Korea for about 30 hours and I've already been phenomenally pissed off at and bitchy to him 2 times! I can't control myself, even though I want to. And I am on every bipolar, anti-anxiety, depression medication available to man plus therapy once a week - so I've eliminated a chemical imbalance as being the source of my work-related angst. It's them - not me.
If I hear one more fucking client whine "What should I do now" right AFTER I JUST TOLD THEM, I am going to lose it.
Lord. And - I hate how this blog is all about negativity ALL the time. I don't have any regular readers, but if I did, or if I read it, I would be sick and tired or listening to me whine already.
My life IS pretty great - it's just that for 9 hours of every day it is monopolized by utter fucktards that ruin the remaining 15 hours of the day - and my time with F.
I'm so bitchy, I'm such a bitch to him; it's unreal. I know it's the stress; I also know that that is NO excuse. I know what it is like to be married to someone who is completely overwhelmed by their work - and I do it anyway!
The younger me, the better me would have walked out - quit, told them to fuck off. I've done it a dozen times before, and for less valid reasons. I've left jobs because our philosophies don't mesh. I've left jobs over principle. I left a job to protect a co-worker who I wasn't particularly close to!! (She needed the job more than I did, I reasoned. She was older and would have had a harder time securing a similar position at another company, but I was in college.)
I've posted my resume to some gov't jobs. I will sit tight, but I don't know how much more I can take.